Heal

Choosing to forgive yourself is making a conscious decision to release judgment. You are neither condoning nor evading accountability for anything. It’s both the acknowledgement and release of what has been hurting you. You, just like everyone else, have done the best you could in every moment of your life. We are all growing and learning as we go. No one is perfect. But we think you’re pretty great!

These submissions are raw releases of things people have decided to let go of. We have chosen not to edit releases because we feel that correction is not necessary. We have the tendency to judge, edit, criticize and correct when we perceive imperfection. To judge a release based on form rather than content goes against what this project stands for. When people release, words may be misspelled as emotions rise; proper grammar may be loosely heeded as keyboards are stroked with nervous, trembling, or happy-to-release hands. Additionally, we are receiving submissions from many different countries where English isn’t commonly spoken. As you read these submissions, we ask that you resist the temptation to judge them based on form. Focus on their content. Connect with the spirit of the human being who chose to share their thoughts with you.

Each submission is exactly as it is meant to be: it is release; it is a snapshot of an opening heart.

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  • Name or Alias (optional): Still Learning
  • Age: 18
  • Sex: Female
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Female
  • First Thing: i forgive myself for all the harm i have inflicted upon myself in times of anguish, hurt, pain, and lonelyness. I am sorry to myself for what i have done and that ihave had so many thoughts for myself.
  • Second Thing: I forgive myself for holding onto the past and causing myself more pain then was needed. I am ready to let go of this and to move on to the future that will be bigger better and brighter then ever before.
  • Third Thing: For holding on to faults found in others and finding a way to blame myself for them. it is not my fault how others act towards me and others and all i can do is take heed and move on.

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  • Name or Alias (optional): Robin
  • Age:45
  • Sex:F
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Atlanta, GA
  • First Thing: I forgive myself for growing up in a family that didn’t show physical/emotional love to one another. Something that I needed so bad growing up to help guide and nurture me after my mother’s death. This was my spiritual journey that i had to walk to get to where I am now – HEALING/loving myself.
  • Second Thing: For the abortion at 19. Where would I be now if I had kept the baby?
  • Third Thing: I forgive myself for all of the fear that I have felt, because I released God’s hand!

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  • Name or Alias (optional): Phil Lee
  • Age: 44
  • Sex: male
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Leeds, Yorkshire, England
  • Thing # 1: For stealing stuff as a kid – having grown up in poverty in an inner city council estate surrounded by friends with mums and dads my single mother often neglected and abused us – I would steal toys from shops just so I could be like the other kids – I had no good role model and stealing became a norm.  Inevitably I fell foul of the law and was locked up in various childrens homes – a child is a flower, watered, nurtured and looked after will produce a wonderful display (life) that positively affects others – the alternative is a sad, broken child that makes up for the disadvantages in ways thathurt themsleves or others (or both) it was NOT my fault and I forgive myself – my life is better for it.
  • Thing # 2: Having massive insecurity and blaming myself – I had a terrible childhood resulting in low esteem and therefore countered this with excelling at physical stuff, I joined the British Army and exceled but would often feel sad, feel that I wasn’t good enough and that I had to prove myself – I now know it was not my fault but that of others for their negelct and abuse.  It was NOT my fault – the past is exactly that – I forgive myself.
  • Thing # 3: For drunkenly punching a friend  – I was stressed out having been told by my son he was being taken to a different city and wouldn’t be able to see me on fathers day, she wouldn’t pass my home to drop his card off and I was angry – I had far too much to drink (I don’t drink normally) and found some stupid reason to cause a row with a friend who I then punched.  He has called and forgiven me but i still feel sad and stupid for it – I can’t believe how stupid I’ve been – I have been dealing with my son’s mum being nasty for years so have no idea why I flipped so badly on this occaision.

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  • Name or Alias (optional):
  • Age: 38
  • Sex: F
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Canada
  • Thing # 1: day dreaming
  • Thing # 2: wasting my time (watching TV)
  • Thing # 3: pleasing others

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  • Name or Alias (optional):
  • Age: 18
  • Sex: Female
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Philadelphia, PA
  • Thing # 1: The Boy: We have been on and off for three years, more off than on it seems.. but i cant be without him I tried having another serious relationship (i know trying only once doesn\’t do anything) but i only wanted him. He\’s cheated and lied and i hate making excuses for him but he is a good person. I want to be able to trust him but it is so hard.
  • Thing # 2: My family: I love my family more than anything but having relationships with them has been really hard for me. I feel like i have it so much easier than most and really shouldn\’t be complaining but they stress me out! I am ready to get out of my house, but hope they know how much i will miss them.
  • Thing # 3: Friends: My whole entire life. This year i feel like i have lost some of my closest friends, not completely but little by little i seem to need them less than i used to. I miss how things used to be but i guess thats all apart of growing up.

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  • Name or Alias (optional): Rich
  • Age: 31
  • Sex: M
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): FL
  • Thing # 1: I’m really not that smart or very special. I am now and have always been surrounded by people who think I am great. I am not. Guess I fake it well. I will inevitably disappoint everyone in my life. I hate myself for the pain I cause the people I love to be in because I let them down.
  • Thing # 2: I cannot dispel the damage done by abuse that I have suffered when I was young. I was sexually abused by strangers on multiple occasions. I was physically abused by someone I hated. And I was verbally abused by someone that I wanted to love me. I have tried to forget them, confront them, and accept them, but I can’t. They live in my head forever, and I get angry and sad whenever I think about it.
  • Thing # 3: I don’t believe there is any existence other than our mortal life, and it scares me to the point of panic if I focus on it. I can’t stand the thought of me and the people I love disappearing into nothingness after we die. But I believe that is the truth, and there is nothing I can do to stop it.

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  • Name or Alias (optional): Francine
  • Age: 57
  • Sex: Female
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Sunrise, Florida
  • Thing # 1: I wish that I followed my brain instead of my heart when I said “I do” for the second time. I knew that my husband was a sex addict, I loved him and I believed him when he said that he would stop actding out once I relocated and we could live together.
  • Thing # 2: At age 40,I relocated to a climate that I knew I would hate. I left the ocean, warm weather and sun…..everything that was important to me. I relocated because I(thought that I) loved a man, who was also a sex addict (he is still acting out 18 years later).
  • Thing # 3: I lost my self esteem and independence in the marriage and the move. I started to drink too much to numb the pain. I stopped drinking 9 weeks ago today (June 17, 2010) Iam a cancer survivor and I believe that the stress of the marraige, having another child at age 42 and having to live in this dismal climate was the cause of my cancer. I’m very angry at myself for getting into this mess of a life.

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  • Name or Alias (optional): harry sheldon
  • Age: 48
  • Sex: Male
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Canada, Ontario, Toronto.
  • Thing # 1: For being an extreme alcoholic.
  • Thing # 2: For being a failure to my wife and children.
  • Thing # 3: For being a failure in my chosen career.

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  • Name or Alias (optional): I surrender
  • Age: 45
  • Sex: Female
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Ireland
  • Thing # 1: I forgive myself for my anger at a double crossing bitch who stole a major project of mine last week. I am grateful for finding out what this snake in the high grass is really like as I might have had to work with her in the future. Incidentally I read her project submission, oh boy, I really dodged a bullet, full of typos and utter baloney, giggled a lot on the way home.
  • Thing # 2: I forgive myself for all the crap things I did while drinking.
  • Thing # 3: I forgive myself for not being able to deal with demanding people.

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  • Name or Alias (optional): Christopher Anthony Sawyer
  • Age: 27
  • Sex: male
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Cincinnati, OH
  • Thing # 1: The way I treated my mother growing up.
  • Thing # 2: The way I treated the first women I ever loved… it was a shame!!
  • Thing # 3: I cant even mention it here but I know what it is… sleeping with a certain women…

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  • Name or Alias (optional):
  • Age: 22
  • Sex: female
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): India
  • Thing # 1: I am ready to forgive myself for the drugs i chose..cause they have helped me find myself
  • Thing # 2: i am ready to forgive myself if people dont like me… cause wen someone is bad u smile back..they are actually teaching u the real ways of life
  • Thing # 3: i am ready to forgive myself for all that i have to do each day even if i dont like it…cause it is in the name of restoring balance for the higherr good

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  • Name or Alias (optional): Monica
  • Age: 37
  • Sex: f
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): thousand oaks ca
  • Thing # 1: I forgive myself for being relieved when my dad killed himself.
  • Thing # 2: I forgive myself for being with a person who does not appreciate my curves and stares at women that are thinner than I am while we are out together.
  • Thing # 3: I forgive myself for settling for less than I want out of fear of being alone.

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  • Name or Alias (optional): S
  • Age: 19
  • Sex: Male
  • Locale (Country, City, etc.): Australia
  • Thing # 1: For being gay, even though it is not something I can control.
  • Thing # 2: Trying to kill myself.
  • Thing # 3: For hating myself.

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